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Sunday, April 15th, 2007
12:47 pm	So What's new??? Well to be honest not a whole lot. Over the past few months of this year known as 2007 I have been giving my brain a real heavy workout with my youth ministry internship which has been quite challenging but also quite rewarding. Although I am now unemployed and have no real income to speak of, I feel so blessed that we live in a country that bothers to support its citizens who need a helping hand when they need it, and futhermore support them to get on their own two feet. So while I am still unemployed which is a source of frustration in and of itself, the financial burdens of such a predicament have been lessened somewhat. Over the last couple of months I have been trying to work out what youth ministry is and how do we go about doing it and also how do we reach out to currently unreaced youth in our own backyard but also on a more wider scale overall. Although I haven't yet really formed any one hundred percent solid opinions or views, some progress has at least been made. So although it may not seem like it to an external observor my time is being spent productively. During all of this ofcourse there have been other issues causing their own internal personal emotional and psychological damage. All of this has of course caused my behaviour and potentially personality to change slightly or significantly over the last few months although I haven't been in the best position to check so thos of you who have had close contact with me can probablly identify any changes. Rest assured however that through the help of a particular individual who at this point shall remain unidentified, these issues have since been raised and are in the process of being dealt with. For those of you who pray, your prayers would be highly appreciated. For those of you who don't pray or don't believe in God, how about we have a chat about it sometime? God bless all. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 7th, 2007
7:33 pm	Ministry, theology and stuff. Well hello there. Its now been roughly a month or so since I resigned from being a professioal eavesdropper. What have I been doing in the meantime? Well to be honest not a whole lot really. The only real committments I know have are St John, Recharge (youth group at church) and doing this funny thing called a youth ministry internship one day a week. I too should point out that the priority of each of those activities is by no way reflected in the order of the list. Furthermore, there are other items that in all honesty should be there. However, in the interest of simplicity they have been omitted. Rest assured those of you who really should know about such things allready know. So anyway what have I really been up to? Well last year the internship idea was floated by one of the ministers at my church. After lots and lots of thinking, reflecting and not to mention prayer....always good to involve God in such things!!! Especially when you are thinking about sacrificing so much to serve him! I decided to take the internship on, or at least apply and see how we went. So I lodged my application and shortly after attempted to talk to the relevant people at work. However, for whatever reason it seemed as though I was continually being ignored due to various work pressures. Not being one to cause a fuss I allowed that to slide. In the meantime I had been accepted into the program. It had been my hope to reduce my workload to four days a week and do the internship on the side however, after carefully thinking it through again and looking at the pracitcalities of my job role, I realised that it was not a realisitic expectation to do so. Thus after much prayer, thought, reflection and guidance I decided to resign. I have since began the internship and have been incredibly challenged in my approach to youth ministry and how I approach the bible and my own relationship with God. It has been an immense challenge and one that has been like walking up a very large hill covered in dense bush. Not light work at all, rather its been a hard slog, but a hard slog well worth doing. All in all things are going well. My brain has never hurt so much in my life but hurt in a good way not in a I'm going into a coma kind of way. If only I had some way of earning that weird money stuff that now seems virtually non existent things would be quite fanschmabulous but I trust this too will happen in good time. Stay tuned. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 5th, 2007
9:17 pm	Well well well Well hello there. I have been burried under a mountain of different distractions that have, until now prevented me from doing this very thing. That is of course writing to anyone out there in the weird and whacky world of cyberspace who so happens to even bother to read my random ramblings about life the univerese and everything. And no not just 42! The last update I believe was on my attempt to address the sticky topic of the trinity. It saddens me to report that the project has since stagnated but fear not, it has not been forgotten and will be picked up at some point in hopefully not the too distant future. Well what exactly has Will been up to this past year or so? Well, well, well...I have finally learnt how to say no to things. Which was a lesson much needed on my part as there was one aspect of my life causing me to burn out slightly. And since learning this valuable lesson things in that area have improved. I became a "professional eavesdropper" last year in about october which basically consisted of me spending eight hours a day listening to telemarketing sales to make sure they were legally compliant. From boxing day 2006 to the 7th of Jan 2007 I was on this weird thing that christians do called Beach Mission. What exactly is this Beach Mission thing all about Will? Well I'm rather glad you asked. Very simply Beach Mission is a time when a whole bunch of Christian people get together, set up some really big tents in a place far away from where most of them live and spend 10 absolutely exhausting days telling kids, teens and adults alike about the good news of Jesus Christ. But wait there's more! We even pay for the privilige. This would of course sound crazy to most of my friends who do share the same convictions as I and sadly there is hardly enough room in this brief update to expand on this further. Suffice to say that the wisdom I now follow is not of this world....ooooo spooky huh? Well, if I have your curiosity sufficiently aroused I would really love to hear from you. But not to just tell you what I think and believe but I would absolutely love to hear what you have to say! The guantlet has been thrown down....the question is.... Who is game to pick it up??? Oh and just by the by (mmm stange saying that) stay tuned for my cooky plans for 2007!!! and just random updates too!!! Current Mood: content Current Music: a whole bunch of stuff.....??? (Comment on this)
Monday, August 21st, 2006
9:58 pm	A challenge. Hello there dear reader. Well im sure it has indeed been quite a while since my last entry. I have obviously once again pulled myself out from under the rock that sporadically rolls over the top of me stopping my blogging activities. Now to the point at hand before I lose my grip. A little while ago in a car trip conversation with Dave, the topic of the trinity came up and the concept of unitarian thinking was at the centre of the conversation. This got us to pondering as to the essentiality of the trinity in christian belief. As a result of our pondering, Dave issued me with a challenge to investigate the implications of the topic. Thus I have been engaged to such an end and am making slow progress. Any input from other readers of this blog is welcomed and gladly accepted and will of course as a matter of courtesy be duly acknowldeged. I will possibly post the result of my work on here for all to read which seems quite daunting but I have not made my mind up to that end of yet and once I have completed this task feel free to throw the gauntlet down yourself and have me look into something. I need the brain stimulation since i work in a rather brain numbing occupation. God Bless Will. Current Mood: curious Current Music: Garage Hymnal - take my life (Comment on this)
Friday, July 14th, 2006
8:30 pm	winter winter winter Every now and then, each of us comes across another organisim on this planet that, either attaches itself to us or we attach ourselves to it. With this occurrence comes the desire to give whatever it may be whether a dog, cat, or brilliantly colored parrot a name. Such is the human condition. I myself have recently met and indeed spent a large amount of time with a new organism in my family this week. Although a rather unlikely organism i had decided to call him "fred". At this point there is only one other person in on the gag and i dont think he reads this blog. For the rest of you the organism is actually the influenza virus that has called my body home for the last week. Its been an interesting week with fred although i wont be too upset when he finally departs. He has allready introduced himself to my father who is rather unimpressed with the situation. Such is the season where you can be unexpectedly cut down and your life thrown into sleepy chaos. All the best to those who i hope have staved off other "freds" lurking out there. Current Music: mercy me (so goooooooood) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 13th, 2006
8:32 am	i wonder how many people still bother to read this....... I have bad a thrown down gauntlet picked up and thus thrown back and so to complete part of the duel at any rate I have been inspired to use these questions as kind of like a little test to see if anyone still actually bothers to read my random rantings. So without further delay..... ...and now for something completely different Comment to this post, and: 1. I'll respond with something random about you 2. I'll challenge you to try something 3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you 4. I'll tell you something I like about you 5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you 6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of 7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you 8. If I do this for you, you must post these questions on your blog. Current Mood: just woke up Current Music: jars of clay still (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, June 2nd, 2006
8:20 am	Elevator to no where The other evening as i left work after completing an eleven hour shift, I wandered my way to await for a lift from the eleventh floor to the ground so i could not think about phones, well for about 12 hours anyway. I and some colleagues borded the lift that soon arrived and everything was going splednidly until we reached the bottom. As we reached the ground floor the lift kind of spluttered kind of like a car that has just ran out of petrol. "That didn't feel good" I thought to myself, and we patiently awaited for the doors to open to freedom to no avail. We proded a few of the controls to see if we could inspire the doors to open and this yeilded no results. Suddenly it felt as though we were on the move yet again and as i looked up to the floor indicator we indeed were moving, but why are we going back up? We arrived at the tenth floor the doors opened to let the awaiting ghost in and we went back to the ground floor where the same thing happened. "Oh no not again" "We'd like to get out now" where two common phrases as people vented their exasperation at our current predicament. I started to contomplate whether or not i should just get off at the next floor we go to wherever that may be and curl up for the night using my jacket as a pillow. It would have kind of been like camping except with reverse cycle air conditioning. Alas we started moving onwards and upwards yet again and we made it to the top floor Yay. We are now even further from our goal then when we started. We decided to make a break for it much to the dismay of the lady waiting for her lift to the ground. (Most other tennants in the building tend to dislike the workers from my company much to the point where there is much snobbery on their part. Having extracated ourselves from the evil elevator we waited patiently for the next one, only to find that it hadn't gone anywhere,grrrrrrrr. So we waited for the doors to close and counted to five and pressed the button again. Hazza a new lift arrived and we were taken safely to the ground floor and let out rather efficiently. Perhaps the other lift was lonely? who knows but where quite relieved that we would be spending the night in our comfy beds. All in all a rather extensive but amusing end to a rather frustrating day. Current Mood: amused Current Music: jars of clay furthermore (Comment on this)
Monday, May 29th, 2006
9:53 pm	Just when the game of soccer cant get any more amusing we find a way. It all started out interestingly enough as a quiet (by Quakers hill standards) social gathering after church. Many a conversation was had some deep and some not quite so deep and supper was consumed and enjoyed by all. One by one the crowd slowly dwindled until the hardcore few remained (ok so its more like a dozen or something, anywho) Somehow a soccerball materialised and before you could say Harry Kewl (someone correct the spellin if it needs it) it was being kicked around in a soccer style version of piggy in the middle. Pretty boring huh? Well it was lots of fun when you combine our relative inexperience with the mechanics of the game of soccer. But throw in a pianist who would think of a theme song for each person in the middle and an assistant minister wearing a bathrobe and things became slightly more interesting. Now in order to pass the ball effectively you and your intended target both need to see the ball correct? Well this is where the bathrobe comes in. Yes our ever resourceful assistant minister found an effective and not so subtle way of obscuring the effectiveness of sight. He would roam around harrassing the person with the ball with arms spread so his robe looked like a couple of bats wings or perhaps a cape even. Which indeed while highly effective in achieving his goal the amusement factor far outweighed the efficiency. Ah what a crazy bunch we can be at times. And such a top way to finish off a terrific evening and indeed a great day fo me. Cheers everybody and Ole Ole ole etc as the famous soccer chant goes !!! Current Mood: sleep is cool. Current Music: jars of clay (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 22nd, 2006
9:50 am	wow i still have a blog. From the fact that i cant actually remember myself when the last time i "blogged" was and that i now need to rely on a computer to tell me indicates that it has been a long while indeed. Which now leads me to the fleeting notion of if i do bother to update this modern marvel of communication will anybody still bother to read it? Seems to be a somewhat of a dilema, but nethertheless i shall perservere. So what has been happening in the world of will some may ask. Well not a whole lot to be honest. My days and weeks and months are taken up by sleeping, going to work, coming home and sleeping again. With the occasional st john gig thrown into the mix for a touch of variety oh and plus i do go to church every week. So one could say that for the last 6 or so months i have very much been a creature of routine. Now i am all for routine but to a point. It tends to make things a bit too monotonous if there is in fact no actual variety. Which infact is what my life has become. Plus the fact that my job is probably the most repetitive job anyone could ever get in the entire universe and probably beyond seems not to help much either. Regarless of this however, I am persevering through and i am pleased to say having some fun along the way. Probably the biggest bonus of where i work is that i have the bible society shop and the matthias media shop within an easy 5 minute walk of my front door. This means that a)i am now well known in both places of business and b)that i have now run out of room on my bookshelves however this does not seem to be the deterent you might think it otherwise would. Apart from all of that life is generally pretty cruisy with the usual speedbumps that one does tend to have to tackle in this world. (if you are really curious about what they are you can come and ask me yourself or send me an email or something) I have various plots in the mill that will be hatched in due course (sorry no prior warning on these) but all in all life is fairly good at the moment. So there we have it another random blog post by will. You know one ever 7 months or so isnt that bad really is it???? mmmmmmmmm I wonder how long it will take for people to realise that ive updated this lol. Until next time (so probably in 2007) will signing off. Current Mood: now that ive updated this i Current Music: jars of clay - doesn't matter which album they're all good (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 26th, 2005
10:40 pm	the year that was 2005 THE YEAR THAT WAS. Well the year started off just like all those that have been before it. Everything seemed to be on the same roller coaster that it had been for the previous three. After all why shouldn’t it? It was after all yet another year of study. University commenced and I found myself yet again doubting why I had chosen the course of study I had, perhaps choosing the only course that I had been offered was a big mistake. I have obviously decided earlier this year that the realm of secondary teaching is not my cup of tea. Although I do not see the choice of following the program of study I have a mistake at all. I have met some absolutely fantastic and wonderful people in the last three years who are all very special to me. Furthermore perhaps without my time at UWS I would not have accepted Jesus Christ as my personal lord and saviour. So I feel that this was the lord’s plan all along. I ceased my studies in May this year and took an extended mid year break during which I filed for a leave of absence. Be assured that this decision has not at all been made lightly as many of my closer friends can attest. I had indeed become quite depressed so I am told to the point where I neglected some rather important commitments that I had made to the children’s ministry of my church. So I have thus left the world of being a student for the time being at least. Will I be finishing my university career with a nice piece of paper with the words Bachelor of Science emblazoned on it? Sadly no. There will be no glorious university graduation for me, well perhaps not for a while at least. So where to now? Well actually I don’t rightly know. I have many conflicting thoughts pulling me in many a different direction, with the urge to become a trainee-enrolled nurse being the greatest. So there we are, the move forward will be the application and hopefully the interview and then acceptance/orientation process for the trainee enrolled nurse program. What else have I been up to this year? Well I “shot” my first wedding that was such an awesome privilege and quite a challenging experience but ultimately rewarding. I have found myself a job until I get myself sorted out. Even though its not the most enjoyable job in the world its still money and the people are nice which is helpful even if it is rather tedious and monotonous. My work in st John ambulance has gone absolutely crazy with me taking on the Superdome operations portfolio and I have since discovered that I am not as organised as I, and perhaps many of you once thought as I quite quickly felt that I had indeed taken a much larger bite than I could in fact chew. Nevertheless I soldiered on and at various stages along the way almost made a complete bungle of things. However, the converse is also true with many people both internally and externally congratulating me on a job well done. With that in mind I look forward to 2006 with the challenges it brings filled with optimism for the highs and inevitable lows that are attached At various stages throughout the year, several people although one in particular who shall remain nameless pointed out that I seemed to be somewhat lacking in what normal people would seem to call a life. This lead to one individual’s attempts at getting me “out there” which I am quite thankful for. So where to from here? Well the prior mentioned career move and getting my act together organisationally speaking. I would like to thank all of those who have in their special individual ways helped me in getting through the year and in making various decisions. There are way too many of you to name, you all know who you are, but then again perhaps you don’t as your support was lent without you consciously knowing it. If that at all confuses you, come and speak to me or give me a call and I will explain it to you. For those so inclined I would just like to make a few prayer requests if I may, and it of course goes without saying that if anyone wants me to pray for them please let me know and I will do so. And so the prayer points. *that I keep growing in maturity in Christ *for guidance in career decisions *that the lord shall reveal his will for my life and I will be ready to respond *for the continuing growth of the church So that in short is a summary of the year 2005 as viewed by will Allison. Of course I could have included many views and comments about the happenings of the world around us, but just so much happened worthy of noting for good or bad that it would indeed take too long. So thank you for being the great friend you have been this past year or indeed the past years that I have known you. I’m sure there are events and amusing anecdotes that I have inevitably omitted and if they were at all entertaining then you probably already know or know of them. Well my good friends I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and all the very best for the New Year. Take care and God bless. Will. Current Mood: reflective Current Music: brooke fraser (Comment on this)
Monday, November 21st, 2005
6:33 pm	it has indeed been a while well it sure has been a while. so what has caused this sudden ceasation of blogging activity? well partly the fact that i havent been overly inspired to write about anything thats been happening in my life since my last entry which i cant even remember when that was. partly the fact that i had partially forgotten that i had ever had a blog. and the fact that i now work full time and have no time to spend any copious amounts of time on the world wide web. so what have i been up to? occasionally making a semi complete blunder of my role within st john and getting my bitt kicked for such. assisting with youth ministry, working full time, shot my first wedding (photos). apart from that ive just been trying to retain what is left of what i laughingly call my sanity. working definitely has its advantages. my book, cd and dvd collections have grown substantially over the last couple of months which has been kinda cool. and i finally have the cash to do a few things that i had been longing to do for ages which was nice. i have been reading most of those books which have been quite challenging and encouraging so that has been fantastic. but apart from all that, thats about it for now. sorry it wasnt more insightful but thats all i can manage on 5.45 hrs sleep Current Music: emu music live 2 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
4:36 am	triumphant My dear friends I have emerged from deepest darkest sydney where i went in search of the ever elusive "job". The best was wary of my approach at every corner and was very skittish the moment i caught even the smallest glimpse of it. However through some adept and cunning trickery and master huntsmanship i was able to capture the beast leaving myself relatively unscathed. And now for the decode. Yes my dear friends i am now no longer a couch potato. I have joined the 9-5 crowd in the cahotic cbd of sydney. Its not my idea of the best job but it is nonetheless a job in which i get renumeration for my troubles. Apart from that small change in life circumstances not much has been happening. Have not read much in the way of literature that has challenged my views but i am building up to something. So stay tuned. god bless will. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 1st, 2005
3:42 pm	the rock under which I hid has rolled away. Well dear reader it certainly has been quite the interlude has it not? What have I been up to since july when I last spouted some form of text?. Well I have been on a rather long holiday from university taking a leave of absence while my degree transfer is processed which as a few of my UWS colleagues whom I spend a larger amount of time with would attest has been a rather bemusing, anoying and frustrating process. Yet dispite all this I am semmingly not surprised. What have I been up to during this lull of activity? Well I wake up read, watch tv, read some more and eat. Oh yeah exciting stuff huh? Although following an interview with centrelink next monday I will be actaully motivated (much more than I have been recently) to find this strange thing that my parents and some friends call a job. Also actaully obtaining some form of thing that says I am permitted to get behind the wheel of an automobile would porbably be advantageous and would possibly get several people to refrain from hassling me about a lack of such a piece of plastic card. Well thats all for now. God bless will. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 16th, 2005
9:31 pm	the mystery of sunset rock released. during the june long weekend as most of you allready know from a previous post, a bunch of people from my congregation at church went to a place in the blue mountains called sunset rock. A place where other expeditions had allready attempted to located however always seemed to fall short of the mark. Well it is my pleasure to report to all who are interested that the photography experiment i attempted on our trip was a success and the results will be on display shortly. thats all will. Current Mood: happy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
11:39 am	What does Jesus mean to you? Hello there readers. In an email i recieved today i was asked a question that i have never been asked before, which when i think about it is quite surprising since i am a christian and this should be on the forefront of my mind twenty four hours a day seven days a week. With that said i was quite challenged by this question and i thought i would share it with one and all so you too have the opportunity to reflect over the same question. And so without further adue the question(s): What does Jesus mean to you? and How do you think Jesus sees you? What awesome questions to ask and not only to christians but to non christians alike. So now I would like to encourage and challenge everyone who happens to read this blog of mine to think about these things and then either share your thoughts with whoever you like or please feel free to either post your response to the above questions as comments in reply to this post or drop me an email if you like. I am sure you all have my email address. So what were your responses will? I hear you all ask. well i shall keep you in suspense no longer. What does Jesus mean to me? I've never been asked this question before which when one things about it is quite surprising as a christian. He is the perfect example of how to live god's way and how to have perfect relationship with God. Jesus was totally awesome in that he wilingly took onto himself the punishment and judgement that we thoroughly deserved so that he could bring us back to God by His love for us and through the Grace of God the father almighty. How could someone so good and pure give up his life willingly for people who are so impure and wicked? Why would someone like that save me? How amzing is his love? so amzing that it is incomprehensible. How do i think Jesus sees me? I think he sees a man who desperately is trying to live after him following his example and striving to live a godly life serving God with all my heart. But he still sees a singful man who repents and asks the lord for forgiveness and through my faith i know that he does forgive me and gives me the strength to turn away from all impurity that this world tries to suffocate us with. Father God thank you so much for sending your one and only beloved son Jesus Christ, that you sent him as a pure sacrifice of atonement once and for all for all sin for all time. Father such is your grace that you poor it out over those who don't deserve it thank you for loving all of us so. Help us to turn to you through your son Jesus Christ that we acknowledge him as our lord and saviour. We pray that with your help we will not give into the temptations of this world but we will live for you in every aspect of our lives constantly witnessing about you to all people of all nations so that more and more people will come to see your loving grace and your everlasting glory and be drawn back to you in repentance and in faith and love of your son. In the name of our lord Jesus Christ Amen. So what does Jesus mean to you? and how do you think he sees you now? Is there anything in your life that needs to change? I know that i have areas that i need to and am working on. And if things are not right between you and God can i please encourage you to sit down with someone and make things right and don't put it off until tomorrow do it now. God bless each and every one of you. Until next time Will (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 19th, 2005
11:09 pm	The God of my rock in him will I trust my high tower and my refuge 2 Samuel 22:3. Well what an absolute privilege it was today to be able to stand up and make a public declaration of my faith in our lord and saviour Jesus Christ. I along with several other participants all took part in a confirmation service at our church. A big thank you to all of you who were either there in person to support me or supported me through prayer it is truly appreciated. I thank each and every one of you for helping me in my journey with christ and i hope and pray that i too will be able to support and encourage you as we walk with the lord together. But most of all my thanks and praise go to God the father without whom none of this would have been possible especially if he had not sent his one and only beloved son whom he freely gave as a sacrifice for us even though we were still enemies with him. So thank you Lord God almighty for your grace love compassion comfort and support. In christ Will (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 15th, 2005
3:09 pm	THe myth of sunset rock Twas a mid winters eve when a smal group of intrepid young and perhaps somewhat foolish adventuerers departed from quakers hill late one sunday. The destination, a refuted location known as sunset rock that had apparently eluded capture. So with steely determination the party departed in high spirits to try and locate this mythical location which is refuted for not only the great sunsets that can be observed from there but also the wonderful opportunities it presents for star gazing. Shortly after the first grouping of the party arrived and attempted to locate the target to no avail and so turned back and awaited further instructions from the experienced guide frank li whom seemed to have some idea of where he was going. shortly after the group was in amazement as they stood in the carpark of the refuted sunset rock. "So it really does exist" was commonly heard being uttered by many of our fellow companions. So with thermos, blanket, sleeping bags, pillows and various forms of chocolate in hand not neglecting the many torches that were also brought we made our way onto the rock and took up the best vantage points we could to gaze upon the billion bright lights of the sky totally amazed about how far away they were. Every now and then an excited cry would be heard from many of the star gazers as they were fortunate enough to observe meteors entering the atmosphere of this world. The group spent the eve sitting, watching and singing praise to the one whom through his almighty power created all that we were experiencing. In between all this some truly awesome and deep converstations were had while we fellowshipped together which in all made for a most enjoyable and yet humbling night. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 6th, 2005
12:22 am	of late Caution rather extensive blog entry follows read with caution Just a few thoughts and reflections of the happenings of my seemingly random life. Although I know that everything happens according to God's plan and I know that he is in control of absolutely evrything that happens so i am just sitting back and enjoying the ride really. Although we all go through times where we suffer various forms of hardship trials and heartache but these are times where we need to stand ever more strongly on the lord our saviour and not to give in to the worldly desires that we have. These trials through which we perservere and endure strengthen us in our resolve to lead godly lives and they encourage us to lay our complete hope and trust in the lord and rely on him for everything. So what has really been happening with me of late. Well to be totally honest I have had buckley's chance of working me out these last few weeks or so but i will try as best as i can to reveal as much as i can and am comfortable with the whole wide world web seeing it at some point. I must say this whole blogging thing really makes me vervous but its great and i am having a load of fun writing these entries so i hope you are having some fun reading them. The last few weeks have been quite the emotional rollercoaster that seemed to be just a never ending drop into oblivion and this seemed to really bring out some other feelings that i thought were well and truly dealt with but apparently not. As most of you now know i have decided that the world of secondary education is not my thing so sadly i have departed from that realm. I should make it clear to all that my doubts were not caused solely by prac but i had been having doubts about teaching for the best part of say 18 months and some considerable thought has gone into my decision. During this rather down phase of late all my other feelings and emotions were brought to the surface and highlighted to me that there were things lurking there in the background that i didn't really put much weight on before but for some reason i feel much more strongly about them now. And to be honest my handling of the issue probably wasn't the best way to go about handling it. That being just venting to the first person on msn i came across (you know who you are). Suffice to say that the issue pertained to matterrs of the heart and my seemingly strong feelings for a particular member of the opposite sex. After much venting and conversation and then reflecting on the word of god 1 corinthians 7 i realised that singleness is a blessing from god and being single is great as you can truly devote your whole self to serving the lord on earth instead of dividing yourself between your girl friend and god. So with that in mind and then reflecting on my notes from a conference in january where such things were spoken on i was reminded and encouraged to remain as i am and first seek contentness being single and serving god with all of who i am so that was an awesome moment when god spoke to me that afternoon through the week. So for the time ahead, well i would like to finish my science degree if, UWS in their seemingly infinite lack of wisdom or logical thinking will allow me to do so. Either way i will be applying for an intake of the trainee enrolled nurse program and then perhaps an accelerated program at uts to attain a registered nurse qualification. or perhaps i will go off to bible college and move into ministry preferrably youth or university orientated whatever the future brings i am confident that god is in control and that he has it figured out. I just hope and pray that he will open my eyes to see the opportunities that he graciously gives me. Finally i would just like to say a big thankyou to the person who allowed me to vent my feelings to them through the week although i think they should have been doing work of some nature at the time but i thank you for that it was greatly appreciated. All the best to one and all Will Current Mood: depressed Current Music: jack johnson (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
11:31 pm	crossroads To all who have not yet heard my latest news, prepare to be shocked, flabbergasted even. After much consideration, prayer and consultation with carious people, i have decided to resign from the teaching profession. instead i am looking at completing my science degree and afterwards hopefully gaining some form of employment somewhere and then at some point in the near future i will apply for the trainee enrolled nurse program TEN and gain a qualification as an enrolled nurse. There are quite a number of circumstances that lead me to this decision and i am far too tired and probably still not in the best frame of mind to list them all here at this very moment, but if you want to find out more and have a chat then you know where to find me. Suffice to say that the last three weeks of my life have been quite the emotional rollercoaster which for the majority of the ride kept going down and down and down. So i have no taken action to remove myself from that pattern before things got too critical. So for now i feel relived and i pray that god will be leading me in the right direction wherever that may be and that i can serve him in whatever role i fulfill. (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
10:01 pm	last minute nerves well it is the eve before the big day when i stumble somewhat blindly into the world of secondary education. i have my lessons mapped out in my mind but i seem to have a degree of difficulty in translating that onto paper. At the moment i have the whole really excited feeling combined with a touch of anxiety and nervousness. i feel confident that i have the skills and knowledge to pass on the relevant information to my students so i guess all that is left to do is to wait and see what tomorrow brings and how i can improve on my performance to maximise student learning. (1 Comment |Comment on this)